Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
- From the poem The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost
As Saturn stations direct today he starts his final separation from the South Node (which always travels retrograde) – which means a final separating in your world from an old karmic story or pattern that is done, done, doneskie!
Due to Saturn having spent the last almost 5 months retrograde, he’s been travelling together with the South Node since April. Usually they might spend a week together, so this is highly out of the ordinary to spend so much time side by side. Not only have they been together, they’ve been doing this walkabout in Capricorn, Saturn’s home territory. Captain Serious back home in Serious Town. Had the walkabout happened in any other sign, their conversation might have been lighter….Pisces would have encouraged some healing baths or soothing crystals (Saturn and South Node were last together in Pisces in 2007), Gemini would have put on funny movies as a break every few miles (the next time they’ll be together will be in Gemini in 2030), but travelling through Capricorn, no such luck. Looked at another way, it’s actually been a great stroke of luck. What we’ve experienced is like that lecture that you really hated when you were getting it, but 20 years later you realise, “that lecture really changed my life.”
This Saturn South Node journey has given 2019 a certain flavour and feel. These two aren’t exactly the life of the party, far from it. They are like the father having a stern talking to with their 30 year old kid who doesn’t want to move out of home and grow up and step into adulthood; the business foreman meeting up with the workers who indulge in a little too much smoko time; or the headmaster chatting with a student who has potential for greatness but is mucking up at school.
For some this influence has felt quite heavy, while for others it’s been a much needed wake-up call letting you know that it’s time to get serious, pull yourself up by the bootstraps, and do what you need to do to get where you want to go. Karma and facing consequences for past actions has been a huge theme.
Your South Node is like an old, familiar backpack labelled “The Past”. This backpack can represent your comfort zone, things that feel natural to you (for better or worse). It can also represent things that you have outgrown, things that can keep you stuck if you hold onto them too tightly. It can hold your personal and family karmic stories, patterns and history (going back lifetimes).
Some people feel that we are here to let go of our South Node stuff and move into the new, fresh pastures of growth territory: the North Node. I more see the Nodes as two ends of a seesaw that need balancing. Life definitely won’t let us cling to our cosy South Node forever, but nor do we have to delete it from our life. Quite the opposite, the more that we bravely venture across into our North Node, the more we’ll be allowed to embrace our South Node in a healthy way rather than in an unhealthy, dependent way.
As an example, let’s say your South Node is in the 4th House of Home and Family, which would mean your North Node is in the 10th House of Career. As much as you might want to dedicate your life to being a homemaker, your life will just not be set up that way. Either you’ll constantly be blocked from having the home/family part of your life flourish until you attend to your career, or you’ll be immersed in home/family until suddenly circumstances force you out into the world to take charge of a few things.
The balancing happens when the North Node gives you a tick of approval, great work you’re owning your North Node….ahhhh, NOW you can re-integrate the South Node in a better way. Your worldly success gives you the means to spend more time at home with your kids. Or your career allows you to provide for your home/family in more prosperous ways. When balanced, you get the best of both your North and South Nodes.
Which brings us back to this walkabout that Saturn and South Node have been on. I have this image of Saturn strolling along, hands behind his back, providing wise counsel:
“You need to let go of this. It’s time to step into that.” South Node is a bit nervous…”Ummm, ahhh, not sure if I can. I’m a bit scared. I’ve never done this before. How am I going to do this? What if I can’t do this?”
Saturn, ever the calm, voice of reason: “Don’t worry.” Saturn doesn’t say this because he’s compassionate. Saturn says this because he’s practical, “Worry has no purpose. Won’t do a thing for you. What will do something for you is decisions, choices, walking your talk, walk with your back straight, walk in alignment with your path, head in the direction you’re going, stop saying you want one thing but then you act in ways that get you other things. Chin up.”
South Node, still unsure, “Ummm, okay.”
Saturn, “Tip out your backpack, let’s see what you’ve got in there. Keep the good stuff, let go of the rest.”
South Node, “Oh God, he’s serious. He’s actually going to make me do this.”
Meanwhile cheery North Node is over in the meadow, tilling the soil, preparing for the new seeds to be planted. “C’mon South Node!” he shouts. “The sooner you clear out your backpack, the sooner I can get these crops happening. And once I start to harvest, I’ll send you some to share!”
South Node: “Hmm….that sounds pretty good!!”
So…this is the journey we’ve all been on this year. Saturn has made us tip out our backpack. Our South Node has been bared for all to see (or at least for our own selves to see). We’ve been made very aware of any patterns we need to change, stories we need to shift, new habits we need to form, and new actions/mindsets it is time to embrace.
As Saturn separates from the South Node, there is a sense of closure of a chapter, and the beginning of a new one. “I’ve done all I can do with you for now. You know what to do. You have all the tools. I’ll be back to check up on you in 12 years. You’ve got this!” Okay, well Saturn didn’t say that last sentence, Saturn reserves that sort of praise for when you show him results…but we all need a little encouragement right!?!
So how has this Saturn South Node walkabout affected you?
What have you been asked to get serious about since April?
What decisions have you felt compelled to make?
What actions have you been called to make?
What have you been urged to do that is laying the FOUNDATION
for the next 12 years (next time Saturn meets South Node)?
The last 5 months have been a gift….an expanded pocket of time to basically get our shit together as much as possible before an important new phase of life. These Saturn South Node meetings are like the pit area where the race cars go to quickly get a change of tyres and a super-fast overhaul before they head out for another set of laps. We usually get a week in the pit area….this year we got 5 months.
As you emerge from this time, you hopefully have the sense that in some area of your life, or in some part of your subconscious, a new boss version of you is in charge. No more falling back on old patterns – nope. You are now a woman or a man with a plan, a newly cleansed backpack and new motivation to get cracking with your North Node meadow.
The most dramatic changes will be with regards to wherever you had once upon a time given up your authority (your author-ship of a certain life area, or certain aspect of yourself). You will know what life area or what aspect that is, because it will be whatever has been pushing at you this year saying “It is time to CHANGE!!!”
On the world stage, we are changing our relationship to authority. We are rapidly losing that tendency that existed in decades past where most people automatically listened to, followed, and believed “those in authority”. This is happening for two reasons: 1) our natural evolution is urging us to step into our own inner authority and 2) revelation after revelation is tumbling one authority figure after another, one authoritative institution after another off their pedestals as their true natures are exposed.
Once 2020 arrives hold onto your hats because Pluto (total demolishing of the old) and Saturn (King of Karma) are joining forces, making 2019 look like a blissful walk in the park. More on this in next week’s energy message!