From ego to heart - Part 1

Four stages in the transformation of consciousness

In the previous chapters, we have described the historical background of the lightworker's journey from ego based to heart based consciousness. This part will be dedicated entirely to the psychological characteristics of this transformation. We have divided up this process into four steps or stages, which we sum up again for the sake of clarity:

  • 1. Being unsatisfied by what ego based consciousness has to offer you, longing for "something else:" the beginning of the end.
  • 2. Becoming aware of your ties to ego based consciousness, recognizing and releasing the emotions and thoughts that go with it: the middle of the end.
  • 3. Letting the old ego based energies inside you die, throwing off the cocoon, becoming your new self: the end of the end.
  • 4. The awakening of a heart based consciousness within you, motivated by love and freedom; helping others making the transition.
Stage one: the ego does not fulfill anymore

The transition from ego based consciousness to heart based consciousness starts with the experience of an inner void. Things that used to draw your full attention or situations that you got completely caught up in now leave you empty or uninspired. Somehow things seem to have lost their usual meaning and purpose.

Before this void is experienced, consciousness is in the grip of fear and the ensuing need to constantly reaffirm itself. It is continually looking for outside validation because it is unwilling to face the underlying fear of rejection and loneliness. This deep fear and the need for outside validation may long be hidden as the true motive for many of your actions. Your whole life may be built upon them without you being consciously aware of it. Perhaps you are aware of a vague restlessness or tension within. But often a major event such as the break up of a relationship, the passing of a loved one or the loss of a job has to come along to invite you to truly examine what this tension or unrest is about.

When the ego is the center of your being, your consciousness and your emotional life are in a state of cramp. You cringe in fear and from that position you are constantly on the defensive. When you're in the ego stage, you always experience lack, a need for more. The foundation of your thoughts, feelings and actions is a black hole, a void which can never be filled completely. It is a hole of fear, a place covered in shadows, since you turn your consciousness away from it. In the shadows, there is a void which you are vaguely aware of, but you don't want to go there.

In this stage, your relationship with God or All-That-Is is marked by feelings of separation. Deep within you feel alone and abandoned. You feel like you are a broken, meaningless fragment with no purpose. And as you cover up your fear of this, you only experience it indirectly, as a shadow.

People are terrified of facing the inner void with full awareness. They are terrified of meeting their inner darkness head on and investigating it. However if you don't face it, it is still there, and you will need to develop "coping strategies" to make life bearable. The ego's strategy is always to deal with the problem at the periphery, instead of at the center. The ego seeks to solve the problem by turning your consciousness outward. It tries to alleviate the inner pain by feeding you with outside energies. The energies it is particularly fond of are acknowledgement, admiration, power, attention etc. In this way, the ego seemingly creates an answer to the soul's deep longing for oneness, safety and love.

This longing in itself is entirely valid and genuine. It is God calling you. It is your own nature calling out to you. You are God! God is the energy of oneness, safety and love. Everyone longs for the unconditional love and embrace of the Energy you call God. In essence, this longing is the longing for being totally aware of, and therefore one with, your own divine Self. Your own divinity is your entrance to unconditional love. You can only find it by going through the fear and darkness surrounding it, and this you do by turning inward, instead of outward. You do it by using your consciousness as a light that chases the shadows away. Consciousness is light. Therefore it does not need to fight darkness; its mere presence dissolves it. By turning your consciousness inward, miracles will indeed befall you.

The ego, however, proceeds in exactly the opposite way. It registers the need for love and safety but it aims at answering this need without facing inner darkness and fear. To accomplish this, it applies a certain "trick:" it transforms the need for love into the need for approval and recognition from other people. It transforms the need for oneness and harmony into the need for excelling and being better than others. Once you think that to be loved is to be admired for your achievements, you don't need to go inside for love anymore; you simply have to work harder! In this way, the ego strives to keep the lid on the pan of fear.

Your original longing for love and blissful unity has now become distorted into the desire for recognition. You are constantly looking for outside validation which provides for some temporary reassurance. Your consciousness is essentially focused on the outer world. You rely on other people's judgments and you are very edgy about what people think of you. This is highly important to you, since your self-esteem depends on it. In fact, your sense of self-worth sinks lower and lower, since you are giving your power away to outside forces who judge you for your outside performances, not for your true being.

Meanwhile the deep-seated sense of abandonment and loneliness is not alleviated. It actually gets worse, since you refuse to look at it. That which you don't want to look at becomes your "shadow side." Fear, anger and negativity can roam there and influence you, intensified by the refusal to go within. The ego can be very stubborn when it comes to suppressing certain doubts, hunches and feelings; it will not release control easily.

What you perceive as "evil" in your world is always the result of clinging to personal power. It is the refusal to give up control and accept inner fear and darkness.

The first step to enlightenment is surrendering to "what is." Enlightenment means that you allow all aspects of your being into the light of your consciousness. Enlightenment does not mean you are fully conscious of everything within you, but that you are willing to face every aspect consciously.

Enlightenment equals love. Love means that you accept yourself as you are.

The inner darkness, that sense of abandonment in the depths of your soul that you all fear so much, is temporary. This ego stage is just one step in a large development and unfolding of consciousness. In this stage, the first leap is taken towards an individualized divine consciousness.

The birth of individual consciousness, the birth of you as a "separate soul," goes together with the experience of being left alone, of being separated from your Mother/Father. It is comparable to the trauma of birth in your physical world. In the womb, the baby experiences an oceanic sense of oneness with the mother. When it is born, it becomes a unity unto itself.

Because of this birth trauma - speaking now of the birth of the soul - the soul takes with it a sense of being torn apart; it had to part with everything it took for granted.

The newborn soul longs for a return to the semi-consciousness state of oneness from which it came and which it considers to be its Home. Because this is impossible, the soul experiences great fear and feelings of desolation and doubt. This inner pain and disorientation will gradually form the breeding ground for the ego's seizure of power. The soul has to deal with the fear and the pain, and the ego promises to provide a solution. The ego holds up the prospect of power and control to the soul consciousness. The soul, feeling powerless and lost, gives in and puts the ego in command.

The ego is that part of the soul which is oriented towards the material, external world. In essence, the ego is the soul's instrument for manifesting itself as a physical being within time and space. The ego provides consciousness with focus. It makes consciousness specific instead of oceanic, "here and now" instead of "all over the place." The ego translates inner impulses into specific material form. It is that part of you which bridges the gap between the non-physical spiritual part of you and the physical part.

For the soul as a non-physical spiritual being, it is quite unnatural to be fixated in time and space. The soul is essentially independent of any material form. When you have dreams of flying around, you are contacting this independent and free part of yourself. The ego, on the other hand, binds and fixates. It enables you to function in physical reality. As such, the ego plays a very valuable role that has nothing to do with "good" or "bad." When it operates in a balanced situation, the ego is a neutral and indispensable tool for the soul who dwells on earth in a physical body.

However when the ego starts to rule soul consciousness, instead of functioning as its tool, the soul gets out of balance. When the ego dictates to the soul (that is the hallmark of ego based consciousness), the ego will not simply translate inner impulses into material form, but it will control and selectively suppress those impulses. The ego then presents you with a distorted image of reality. The unbalanced ego is always in pursuit of power and control and it will interpret all facts as positive or negative in this light.

It is quite instructive to uncover your own power based and control based motives in your daily goings about. Try to notice how often you want to bend things or people to your will, even if it is for a noble cause. How often do you get annoyed by things not going your way? It is important to realize that beneath the need for control is always a fear of losing control. So ask yourself: what is the risk of releasing control, of letting go of the need for predictability? What is my deepest fear?

The price you are now paying for keeping things "under control" is that your attitude to life is tense and restrained.

When you dare to live from inner inspiration and only do what brings you joy, this will create a natural and true order in your life. You will feel relaxed and happy without the need to mold the flow of life. This is living without fear: living with full trust in what life will bring to you. Can you do that?

For a young soul, the pitfall of ego based consciousness is nearly inevitable. The ego offers a way out of the problem of fear and abandonment; it shifts your attention from "what there is on the inside" to "what you can get from the outside world." This is not a real solution to the problem but it does seem to bring relief for a while. Exerting power and control over your surroundings may give you a temporary satisfaction or "kick." There is a brief sense of being loved, admired and respected. This soothes your pain for a while. But it is short lived and you have to exert yourself again to stand out, to be even better, nicer or more helpful.

Please be aware that under the flag of the ego, you can be both sweet and nasty, both giving and taking, both dominant and subservient. Much that is given seemingly unselfishly is an unconscious call for attention, love and recognition from the receiver of the gift. When you are always caring for and giving to others, you are simply hiding from yourself. So to understand what ego domination means, you do not necessarily have to think of cruel tyrants such as Hitler or Saddam Hussein. Keep it simple; watch yourself in your daily life. The presence of ego domination can be recognized by the need to control things. An example is that you want certain people to behave in particular ways. To make this happen, you display certain patterns of behavior. You are compliant and sweet for example, and you try not to hurt someone's feelings ever. There is a need for control behind this behavior. "Because I want you to love me, I will not go against you." This line of thinking is based on fear. It is fear of standing on your own, fear of being rejected and abandoned. What appears to be sweet and nice is in fact a form of self-denial. This is the ego at work.

As long as the ego governs your soul, you will need to feed yourself with the energy of others in order to feel good. You seem to have to deserve acceptance from other people, from some authority outside of you. However the world around you is not fixed or stable. You can never rely on the permanent adherence of whatever it is you rely on, be it spouse, boss or parents. That is why you have to "work" all the time, being always on the look-out for "portions of approval" coming your way. This explains the tense and nervous state of mind that anyone stuck in the ego stage is permanently in.

The ego cannot provide you with true love and self-esteem. The solution it offers for the trauma of abandonment is in fact a bottomless pit. The true mission of the young soul consciousness is to become the parent it has lost.

Please be aware that the structure of earth life, meaning the process of starting out as a helpless baby and growing up to be a self-contained adult, often invites you to do precisely that. How often the key to real happiness in your lives lies in this: that you become your own father and mother, and give to yourself the love and understanding you have missed and are missing from others. On the larger, metaphysical level we have been speaking of, this means: come to the understanding that you are God, not one of his little lost sheep. This is the realization that will bring you home. This is the realization that will bring you to the heart of who you are, which is love and divine power.

The end of the ego stage comes within sight when the soul realizes that it is repeating the same cycle of actions and thoughts over and over again. The ego loses its dominance when the soul grows tired and weary of struggling all the time for an ever elusive treasure. The soul then starts to suspect that the promises of the game it is in are false and that there is really nothing there for it to win. When the soul grows tired of trying and being on top of it all the time, it lets go of control a little.

With less energy going out to controlling thoughts and behavior, an energetic space opens up which allows for new and different experiences. At first when you enter this stage, you may just feel very tired and empty inside. Things you deemed important before may appear entirely meaningless now. Also fears may surface that have no clear or immediate causes. It may be vague fears of death or of losing your loved ones. Also anger may come up with regard to situations in your job or your marriage. Everything that seemed self-evident is now in doubt. That which ego based consciousness set out to prevent happens at last.

Gradually the lid is lifted from the pan, and all kinds of uncontrollable emotions and fears pop out and enter your consciousness, seeding doubt and confusion in your life. Until that moment, you were functioning largely on autopilot. Many thought and feeling patterns within you happened automatically; you let them pass by unquestioned. This gave unity and stability to your consciousness. However when your consciousness grows and expands, your personality gets split in two. One part of you wants to hold on to the old ways; the other part of you questions these ways and confronts you with uncomfortable feelings such as anger, fear and doubt.

The expansion of consciousness that occurs at the end of the ego stage is therefore often experienced as a spoil-sport, an unwelcome intruder which spoils the game. This new awareness unsettles everything that seemed obvious before and it awakens emotions within you that you don't know how to deal with. When you start to doubt ego based patterns of thinking and doing, a whole new side of you enters your consciousness. It is a part of you that loves truth instead of power.

Living according to the dictates of the ego is very repressive. You are serving a little fearful dictator that aims at power and control, not just over your environment but especially over you. Your spontaneous flow of feeling and intuiting are restrained by this dictator. The ego does not like spontaneity so much. It holds you back from freely expressing your feelings, since feelings and emotions are uncontrollable and unpredictable, which is dangerous to the ego. The ego works with masks.

If your ego dictates to you, "be sweet and considerate, to win people's sympathy," you will systematically suppress feelings of displeasure and anger within you. If you start to doubt the viability of this dictate, these suppressed emotions come up again at once. Feelings are not eliminated by being suppressed. They live on and gain in intensity the longer you suppress them.

Once the soul experiences the emptiness and the doubt that is so characteristic of the ending ego stage, it is possible to meet and face all the feelings and emotions that were hidden in the dark before. These pent up emotions and feelings are the entrance gate to your greater Self. By exploring what you truly feel instead of what you are supposed to feel, you restore your spontaneity and integrity, that part of you which is also called your "inner child." Getting in touch with your true feelings and emotions sets you on the road to liberation. The transition to a heart based consciousness has then begun.

Step Two: Exploring your inner wounds

When you stop identifying yourself with the ego, you first get into a state of confusion as to who you are. This confusion can be profound and very philosophical in nature. You get to ask questions about the meaning of life, about good and bad, about what you really feel and think as opposed to what others have taught you to feel and think. These questions are suddenly very real to you and they have a direct bearing on the life choices you make. You look at yourself and you think: is this me? Is this what I want? It is hard to make choices now, since nothing is self-evident anymore.

In fact, you are now taking a step backwards, a step into the deep, a step inward. You become aware of deeper parts of yourself, parts that are less conditioned by your upbringing and by society. You receive glimpses of who you truly are: your uniqueness, your individuality. You remember that there is a part to you that is not dependent upon anything around you, your parents, your work, your relationships, not even your body. This is when you - vaguely - sense your divinity, the part of you that is completely unbound and eternal.

In fact, you are all multidimensional beings; you can and do manifest yourselves in several different realities at the same time. You are not bound to a linear timeframe. Your current personality is only one aspect of the multidimensional entity you are. Whenever you realize that your current expression as a physical human being is simply one aspect of you, you go beyond it and you can get in touch with the greater Self that you are.

But before you get there, you need to heal the wounded parts within you.

Living according to the dictates and demands of the ego has created psychological wounds within you. Letting go of ego based consciousness initially creates confusion, doubt and disorientation. After this first step, you enter a new stage: it is the stage of observing, understanding and healing your inner wounds. We will speak of this stage now.

With the ego in control, your actions and thoughts have been based on fear for a long time. In a sense, you have ruthlessly pursued your desire for power, recognition and control. In this, you have belied your own nature. Your behavior has been based on outer standards instead of on your own true needs. Also you have not been able to really love someone else, since love is completely opposite to the need to control or dominate. This whole state of consciousness formed an attack on the integrity of your soul. The soul suffered under the reign of the ego.

When you disentangle yourself from the grip and the hold of the ego, this inner pain gets more visible to you. It is exposed to you, naked and raw, bereft of masks. You do not, however, know how to deal with this pain yet, since you still are in a state of confusion and disorientation. More often than not, you go through a stage of judging your inner wounds, because they seem to lead you to negative patterns of behavior: addiction, depression, uncontrollable mood swings, problems with communication, difficulties with intimate relationships.

This judgment of yourself inflicts more pain on the soul, which has just begun to turn toward the Light. The soul is letting go of the need for power and control, it is growing more sensitive... and then it gets caught up in self-judgment.

Many people are wandering in this no man's land in between the ego and the heart. They are searching for a more loving reality, but they are still within reach of the ego's whip.

In fact, it is not your inner hurt that makes you fall prey to what you consider "negative traits" in yourself. It is your judgment of the hurt that causes the negativity. If you look at yourself with an attitude of acceptance, you do not see an addicted, or depressed, or failing persona. You just see inner pain that needs to be tended and cared for in the gentlest and kindest way possible.

The most important step in stage two of the transition from ego to heart is that you are willing to understand your inner pain: accept it, understand its origins and allow it to be.

If you can perceive the core of fear that is inherent in all expressions of ego centered consciousness, you have entered the reality of heart based consciousness. However reprehensible someone's behavior is, if you recognize the pain, the loneliness and the need for self-protection beneath, you get in touch with the soul displaying the negative behavior. As soon as you perceive the soul in fear, you are able to forgive. This applies first and foremost with regard to yourself.

Take something in yourself that you truly detest, something that really annoys you that you think you should have gotten rid of long ago. It may be insecurity, or laziness, or impatience, or an addiction: anything you feel should not be there. Now try to understand the real motive behind this trait or tendency. What compels you to feel or do this thing over and over? Can you perceive an element of fear within your motivation?

Do you notice that as soon as you realize there is fear, you grow mellow inside, feeling something like: "Oh gosh, I didn't know you were so afraid! I will help you." There is tolerance in your attitude now. There is love and forgiveness.

As long as you judge fear-based behavior such as aggression, addiction, subservience, vanity, etc. as "bad," "sinful" or "dumb," you are judging. But judging itself is a fear-based activity. Have you noticed that when you judge, you grow harsh inside. Something tightens, like lips pressing to each other and eyes growing cold. Why do we need to judge things? What is this urge to narrow things down to right and wrong? What is the fear beneath our need to judge? It is a fear of facing our own inner darkness. It is, essentially, a fear of living.

In letting go of ego based consciousness, you will want to develop a whole new way of looking at things. This way of looking may be best described as neutral, meaning that it just takes notes of what is, and has no interest in how things "should be." The causes and effects of ego based behavior are observed, the core of fear within is recognized and so the ego truly becomes transparent to you. Whatever is transparent to you, you can let go of if you want to.

Every human being knows fear. Every one of you knows the darkness and loneliness of being caught in fear. When fear is shown openly in the face of a child, most people react instantaneously by reaching out their hands. But when fear is shown indirectly, through masks of violence and brutality, it seems unforgivable. The more destructive and cruel the behavior is, the more difficult it is to perceive the fear and desolation behind it.

Still, you are able to do so.

From the depths of your own experience of fear and desolation, you can get in touch with the deep fear in the souls of murderers, rapists and criminals.

It is possible for you to understand their actions. And if you do so based on your own intimate experience with darkness, you can let go of it. You can let it be without the need to judge any of it. If you truly understand fear as a power that is and that you are thoroughly acquainted with through your living experiences, you can let go of judging. Fear is neither good nor bad. Fear IS and has a certain role to play.

In ways that are very hard to express in human concepts, fear is a blessing as well as a torture. In any case, the choice to allow fear in your reality was not made for you. You were the Gods, so to speak, who allowed fear to play a constitutive role in your reality. You did so not to torture yourselves but to create, to create a reality that has more substance, more "fullness" to it than a world solely based on love. I realize this may sound unbelievable, but perhaps you can intuitively grasp what I am trying to say here.

Fear is a viable part of creation. Where fear is, love is not. Where love is not, love can be found in new and unpredictable ways. A whole range of emotions can be explored, even created by the absence of love. The absence of love can be felt in a variety of ways. The presence of love can only be felt against the background of fear. Otherwise it would be all pervading and you would not notice it as such.

So by creating fear, by catapulting yourself outside of the ocean of love that surrounded you, you allowed yourself to experience love for the first time.

Do you understand?

You did not create love, but you created the experience of love. You needed an opposite, something other than love, to do this and you used fear as an instrument. We on the other side of the veil can clearly see the spiritual role that fear plays in your reality. Therefore we plead with you, again and again, to not judge. Please do not judge fear and the darkness it brings, either in yourselves or in any other being. You are all created from love and to love you shall return.

When you enter stage two of the transformation process from ego to heart, you are confronted with your inner hurt, your fear and you are invited to look at it with understanding and acceptance.

After becoming aware of your inner hurt and fear, you may go through a period of self-judgment at first, in which you may display destructive behavior. It may seem that you are going backwards instead of forwards. At that point, you are in the danger zone, the no man's land in between ego and heart. You know you want to get rid of the old but you cannot yet really embrace the new, so you get caught up in self-doubt and self-judgment. The turning point is when you stop judging yourself - at least for a while.

It is only when you are prepared to look at yourself with an attitude of interest and openness that you enter the reality of heart based consciousness. Before that, you are merely comparing yourself to an artificial standard or ideal that, most of the time, you fall short of. You beat yourself up for this and then you try again to force yourself into the mold that you created for yourself in your head.

This kind of perfectionism, I tell you, is a murderous weapon. It is quite the opposite of love. Love truly does not compare and, more importantly, it never wants to force you into anything or change you in any way. Love has no eye for what should be. The very category of "should" is absent from the consciousness of the heart. Seen from the heart, moral categories are simply ways of interpreting or "dividing up" reality. They are ideas in your head and as you know, they may differ greatly from head to head. The very need to set standards and define the good is the forerunner to human conflict and war. It is not so much the ideas as the underlying need to control and fixate that causes aggression and conflict.

Political, personal or spiritual ideals, standards of health, beauty and sanity, all provide you with standards of how things should be, of how you should behave. They all try to fixate and define what is Good.

But Love is not interested in defining the Good. It is not interested in ideas, but in reality. Love turns to what is real.

The heart is interested in all that is, in every actual expression of you, the destructive and the constructive ones. It simply takes note; it simply is there, encircling you with its presence, if you let it.

If you open up to the reality of love, the reality of the heart, you let go of judgment. You accept who you are at this moment. You realize that you are who you are because of a multitude of reasons, which you are now going to investigate and explore.

When this moment arrives, it is a great blessing for the soul. You are now able to heal yourself. You will fall back into self-judgment from time to time, but you now have a conscious memory of how love feels. And as soon as you have that, you will return to find it anew, for you have tasted the sweet perfume of Home again.

In the second stage of the transition from ego to heart, you get into closer contact with yourself. You are taking a closer look at your baggage from the past. You are reliving painful memories again, memories from this life, perhaps memories of past lives. The psychological baggage you carry from all your lifetimes, up to the present, makes up your current identity. You may look upon this baggage as a suitcase full of clothes. You have played many roles in the past, assumed many identities, just like pieces of garment. You so strongly believed in some roles that you came to look upon them as part of your identity. "This is me," you think of such roles or "clothes."

When you truly investigate what these roles have to do with you, however, you will find out that you are not them. You are not the psychological roles or identities you assume. You are not your clothes. You have used these roles, from a soul-felt need for experience.

The soul takes delight in all experiences, because they are part of the learning process the soul committed itself to. All experiences are helpful and valuable in this respect.

When you take a closer look at your own roles or identities, you soon notice there have been painful, even traumatic experiences in your past, which still "stick" to you. You seem unable to let go of them. They have become like a "second skin," skin instead of mere garment.

Those are the difficult elements in your past, the pieces that now keep you from truly living and enjoying life. You have identified so much with these parts that you think you are them. Because of this you feel that you are a victim and you draw negative conclusion from this about life. But these conclusions do not hold for life as such; they just hold for the traumatized parts in your soul consciousness.

It is these parts that need healing now. You do so by entering the past again, but with a consciousness that is more loving and wise than you ever had before. In the second stage of the transformation process from ego to heart, you heal episodes from the past by encircling them with your present consciousness. Through reexperiencing them in the present, from a heart centered focus, you will let go of the traumatic parts in your past.

Trauma occurs when you experience a great loss or pain or evil and you cannot understand why it happens. You have all experienced trauma in many of your lives. In fact, the soul's consciousness during the ego stage is traumatized from the outset: there is the loss of Oneness or Home that it remembers and does not understand.

When you go back to the original traumatic event through imagination and you encircle it with the consciousness of the heart, you are changing your original response to the event. You change it from horror and disbelief, to simply taking note of what happens. In the regression, you simply take note of what happened and this very act creates room for understanding, room for a spiritual understanding of what actually took place in this event. When this room is present, you are becoming master of your reality again. You are now able to come to an acceptance of the whole episode, since you understand from the heart that there is meaning and purpose to every thing that happens. You can sense from the heart that there is an element of free choice present in everything that occurs, and so you grow towards an acceptance of your own responsibility for the event. When you accept your own responsibility, you are free to move on.

It is only when you relate to your own past identities as actors do to their roles that you are free to go wherever you want. You are then free to enter heart based consciousness. You no longer hold on to any aspect of what you have been in the past: victim or aggressor, male or female, black or white, poor or rich, etc. When you can be playful about the aspects of duality and simply use them whenever it brings you joy and creativity, you have grasped the meaning of life on earth. You will experience great happiness and a sort of homecoming. This is because you are getting in touch with the consciousness underlying your different roles and identities. You touch base with your own divine consciousness again, the realization that everything is one: in short, the reality of love.

We will close this chapter by giving you two meditations which may help you get in touch with the stream of oneness, that stream of divine consciousness that is the undercurrent of all your experiences.

Meditation 1

Which psychological characteristics that you consider very much a part of you cause you the most problems in your life? Name two such characteristics.

Focus on the opposites of those characteristics. So if you picked "impatience" or "insecurity," you now focus on their counterparts: patience and self-confidence. Feel the energy of these characteristics for a moment.

Go within and look for these energies inside you. Name three examples from your own life in which you displayed these positive characteristics.

Now that you are in touch with these positive characteristics, let their energy flow through you and feel how they balance you.

Meditation 2

Relax and let your imagination travel back to a moment in which you felt very happy. Take the first thing that enters your mind. Feel the happiness again.

Now go to a moment in which you felt extremely unhappy. Feel the essence of what you felt back then.

Capture what is common to both experiences. Feel what is the same in both moments.

Both meditations are meant to make you aware of the underlying consciousness, the ever present "you-ness" in all of your experiences. This ever-present vessel of consciousness, the carrier of your experiences, is the divine You. It is your entrance to a reality beyond duality: the reality of the heart. be continued here



Debbie 24th November 2008 7:29 am

Fantastic article. Embracing the fullness of our experiences is the true path to wholeness. In my heart I sense that when each of us is at peace with all the many aspects of ourselves is when we will have a shift in humanity.

May you be blessed as you have blessed so many with your work

Love and light to you :angel:

liong tjoa. 24th November 2008 9:06 am

read liquid grid activation 1 to 5,from Lord Kuthumi.also better include 6 to 45.


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