Life would be easy except for the ideas you have. Really, you ask a lot of life, beloveds. You want it to be your servant, and you want it to serve instantly, even when you keep changing your mind or having no idea of what you want or what you are really asking.
It is fine for you to have a thousand desires. It is desirable to have desires. Have as many desires as you want. Desires are good. Demanding their fulfillment at your whim is another story. Let your desires go out there and up into the universe. A juggler tosses balls up, and gets back what he throws. However, a juggler is limited to what he throws. You are greater than a juggler, beloveds, because you are unlimited.
You still have the idea that you are to be perfect in the eyes of the world. Since you have adopted the eyes of the world, you expect yourself to be perfect in every page of your life. In so doing, you impose upon yourself. You impose markers that you cannot fulfill, or cannot fulfill all the time, or cannot fulfill without great wear and tear. You don’t have to have A+’s all the time. You don’t have to have A’s or B’s or even C’s. Better no grades at all.
When you have to forge your way across a river and you get to the other side, you do not grade yourself. You do not say: “I could have done better. I could have done it faster. I could have done it more easily. I could have not gotten so wet. I could have crossed at a different spot…” You don’t give yourself a grade. You crossed the river. You succeeded. Too often when you rate yourself, you have been berating yourself and finding yourself wanting.
What I tell you in your heart, you can believe. You have sometimes been quick to believe other hearts over your own. This is not because you don’t value your own heart. It is just that you are not certain when it is your heart you are listening to or an idea, perhaps misguided, or your ego dressed up as heart. If you could know for certainty it was your heart whispering and not echoes of the past or effervescent whim, then you might indeed be valiant in following it. You would like proof that it is your heart speaking.
Proof can come only after the fact, beloveds. Proof is manmade. Knowing is from the heart of God. There is no proving Truth. Statistics do not apply. Truth lives in another dimension.
The universe is shining along a vast spectrum of wavelengths right now, so indulge - dive in to recognize all the hints, clues, and revelations are providing you direction for defining yourself at the latest, Newest levels. The goal this week is to take the initiative and be the cause for your own creations. It's a time to remake yourself, find new solutions and projects, even if it ends up not working out it's ok, what matters is you make an effort.
Most of us are still integrating the last Gateway of the Autumnal Equinox. Yet tomorrow, October 11, is the 10th Gateway. Let me say that each Gateway upgrades us energetically and it is up to us to rise to its potential by living and making choices that raise our consciousness. Raising our consciousness is the key to living the potential of each Gateway, besides taking an active part by walking through the Gateway while in transmission/meditation.
In human form you see love tied to and from you. You forget that love is unending. It is not a tie, and yet you feel that a tie has been broken, rudely torn from you. When a beloved one dies, you mourn, you grieve, you believe you have lost something. Certainly in terms of the world, it is loss. A seat is now empty. A voice is now not heard except in the corridors of your mind. You believe love is lost, and so you weep.
Beloveds, is it the love received from the other you miss or your own love going out that you miss? Are they separable? The very way you cannot separate your love speaks for the impermeability of love. Love is not lost. Love is not found either. Love is. But you know only your awareness of love. Your awareness of love is bereft.
The recent eclipses have caused much of the hidden energy, both individually and collectively, to come to the surface. This may have been experienced as lethargy, lack of motivation, unhappiness, being unsatisfied with the status quo, and even deep anger and sadness. Eclipses are a very important Astrological event as they help to illuminate the shadow side within everything and everyone.
Don't despair if life appears to be rather wacky, crazy, and bizarre as we spiral into the transfiguring energetic templates of October. We are about to enter a time/space of adventure filled to the brim with new possibilities, new connections, and new ways of being as Self-sufficient and Powerful.
No doubt we are coming to see, within each of us dwells a Light -- an awareness capable not only of observing the host of invisible forces that forge life itself, but whose conscious interaction with them changes them as it will. It is through this higher order of ourselves that we are empowered to learn the truth about ourselves.
There came a time in the universe for many beings to come in to Earth, and so a great line formed on the other side of the veil. Many people got ready to come in and said, "It looks like it is going to happen. We are all going in here." And all the people who thought they could make a difference got in line, ready to take a turn in a body.