I have been having some odd experiences and I think I may know what is going on. I am being taken to a place where I experience the basic spiritual principles, but in an accelerated, intense, and quite visceral way.
I had the most interesting experience yesterday, while I was in the shower. I was suddenly transported to a world where there was no past. Literally. There was no past. It was very clear to me that what I have always thought of as the past was just a story that my mind had made up.
I have been living a double life since 1993. For most of my “spiritual” years, I have felt a conflict between these two sides of my life, a need to keep them separate, and a nagging feeling that I should be devoting myself completely to spiritual endeavors...
Immerse yourself in gratitude, for this is the liquid that will dissolve the old hurts and ways of being. This is the healer, this gratitude, deep loving gratitude for life itself. Let everything dissolve and dissolve into gratitude until you are only your most essential self.
Today, hold the past in your hands. Hold your two hands out in front of you and allow them to fill with the past, your past, every moment of it. All that happened and did not happen, all that was wonderful and all that simply was. Let it all fill your hands. And now, as you continue to hold your past in your hands, turn your inner vision to your heart. See how your heart is clean and clear, free of any regret or longing. Your heart is beating in this moment and this moment only.
I choose to be one with all that is, in deep peace. I choose to move with the flow, to enjoy the feel of the water, to breathe the water and let it direct my life. I choose to be one with the stream and to live in complete harmony with all that is in my world.