I was more than a little bit intimidated. I was feeling fear the closer we got to one another. Yet I wanted to know him, and I wanted to get close. He was gorgeous and proud, sleek and strong. He weighed 250 pounds.
It was a Sunday afternoon and I needed some quiet time in nature. The best and closest place I could find was a school playground. I gave in to the shade of a tree, sat down and closed my eyes. Only a block away traffic roared and all around me people were busy with Sunday yard work.
It is Winter Solstice and while we know the days will begin getting longer, that the sun is returning…we also know that it is a slow process. It is the first day of winter and so we must make peace with the dark cold days of the season.
I went looking for a job, and I found a large body of water instead. Driving up and down an unfamiliar road I looked and looked for the address that promised a dead end low paying hourly job. Up and down and all around the strip malls, it seemed as though the address was missing.
I didn’t think I left much of an impression. I didn’t believe my presence had made any difference at all. My three daughters and I were on our way back to Florida from Kansas via Ohio, West Virginia and North Carolina.
From the very first moment I saw him, I could not take my eyes off of him. There was something very special that made him stand out from the crowd. I began slowing down in the same moment that he seemed to notice me.
I’d been feeling really bogged down lately. I was spending way too much time asking, ‘Why’ questions. “Why are things the way they are? Why did that happen? Why isn’t this happening?” I was spending my valuable time asking the questions of suffering, instead of thinking about how I would like things to be.
I want to tell you about love. It has been my mission the last several years to learn unconditional love for all, including myself. If you go to my blog and read the first entry you will see it was on my birthday four years ago that I prayed to learn this. I really asked for it!