I’ve been working on my next book, a memoir about the perils and pleasures of aging consciously. I’m doing my best to live each day awake and aware of the finiteness of life. As I make decisions, I keep asking, “If today were my last day on earth, would I be satisfied with this choice?” By doing so, I’m becoming acutely aware of what adds comfort, contentment, peace, and meaning to my life. I’m realizing some pretty interesting things.
Today dawns in its own greatness. You stand perfect within it, exactly as you should be. And it blooms and opens around you, exactly as it is and should be.
And now, establish a new relationship with this day and each as it unfolds. Open up the crown of your head and open to the golden flowing energy which is pouring down into you, full of love, full of promise. Golden and flowing, open and glorious, full of love, made of love, only love. Love and light and energy, all tied to you and your relationship to all that is.
What do you think anxiety is? You recognize it when you have it. You are very familiar with it, but what is it? It is a gnawing disturbance that your mind has set in motion. Even when you don’t know what your anxiety alludes to, your mind has decided to bring it on. It would stir the pot of anxiety.
“I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me.” “What was all that New Age stuff about anyway? Why was I even into that?” “I don't give a ____ about anything anymore. What is the point of anything anyway?” “Wow. Am I ever lost!” “There is nothing to hold onto anymore! I feel like I am on a tightwire with no net!” “Where the hell am I? I feel like I am floating in space!” “Who am I and what am I doing here?” “Is it time to go home now?” “I just want a regular life. No more ‘spiritual' stuff.” “Nothing seems to have any meaning anymore.” “Where did everything and everybody go?” “ Is it over? ”
Your life is not something to be controlled and prodded and pushed into shape. Your life is flowing, like water. Let it flow, naturally and easily. Yes, here and there you can direct this flow; you can go down one tributary instead of another. But the power is all in the movement, in the flow, in the continuance.
It is not an easy thing to learn, to live and make your choices while you are in the middle of a flowing stream, but so it is. There are times when you wish life would stand still for just a moment while you think things through, but it is not to be. You must learn to do your thinking while you are floating downstream, to make your choices on the fly, right now, when the moment of choice is upon you.
Today, I would like you to meet the team that is going to support you in 2007. I would like you to meet Love, Courage, Peace and Faith, to invite them in to be your lifetime companions. To enter your life and abide there, within you, part of your being, ever a part of your thoughts and actions, an integral part of who you are.
Picture them now. Great, white and glowing with power, a golden light encircling each one, a light that comes from within, so bright and powerful that fear and doubt cannot survive in their presence.
You may picture them as powerful winged angels, strong and glowing. You may picture them as knights, galloping in, silver armor flashing, swords ready to defeat the darkness. You may picture them as great balls of golden energy. Whatever form you wish them to take, they will take. Whatever powers you feel they need to have to finally defeat the last bits of fear and doubt within you, you may give them.
You hurry along in life as if it were a race. There is no race. There is just life. You have wanted to be ahead of it. You get out of breath, you pant at breakneck speed.
Life in the world waits for you. It will carry you forward. Life has its own pace. You can’t get ahead of it. You can’t predict it. You can’t stop or start it. It has its own momentum. You are not hapless nor helpless in life, and yet life is not always yours to command. You can beg life, you can whip it, but life has a mind of its own. You ride the horse you are on, beloveds.
You have your ideas of what life should be, and life doesn’t always listen.
You simply don’t want to make too much of life as you live it in the world. You don’t want to make scenes. Embrace life instead, no matter what coat it wears on a particular day.
In actuality, you are your own sovereign self, and yet you immerse yourself in dependency. You feel dependent upon this one and that one. You feel dependent upon your physical belongings as well, as though you couldn’t live without them. Too often, you see yourself as one in need. Tell Me, is this not true that you do?
Well, the jig is up. If there’s something we’ve avoided looking at in our life, it’s going to come up and smack us in the head! The vibration is rising, everything is accelerating and so that which is not of our highest truth will be leaving us with the velocity of the speed of love. It may broadside us.
As the process continues for our readiness into the next phase where we will create and manifest the New, we find ourselves in a mode of tiredness, lethargy, little motivation, no passion, and a surrender energy. All is in divine right order, as this phase is a necessary prerequisite for our “jump” into the New, soon to arrive.
We are wanting and needing much rest now, as we will need these energy reserves we are building when the manifestations of the New begin. At the highest levels, our bodies know what they are doing, as this has been the pattern for some time now…..a sort of need and desire for “hibernation” right before a New burst of energy due to arrive. We are preparing to “reboot” within ourselves and the planet.