Life is full of instructions, guidelines, rules and regulations. There are things we must do, mustn’t do, really shouldn’t do and really should do. On the whole, these are designed to make things run more smoothly as we bumble along through life, for the good of us all.
There is quite a profound sense of discord and discombobulation at the current time as many of us are still reaching deeply into the quieter moments, but many more are pulling hard in the other direction, trying to return to the normal we used to have.
This year I’ve fallen apart. Everything I once held dear has been torn down and ripped away. My beliefs have been shattered, my sense of spiritual connection has disintegrated and turned to dust, and my physical self has crumbled with ill-health and disability.
Watching the stormy seas crash over the rocks and the sea wall (from the safety of the café!) is both invigorating and enlivening. As the waves grow larger and larger, their power and force become clear as they toss large pebbles and pieces of driftwood...
Well, after the trials and tribulations of 2019, most of us are hoping for an opportunity for some good things to look forward to in 2020 as many of us have been put through the ringer physically, emotionally and spiritually.
February looks set to be a month of insight and inner knowing as the light of wisdom is turned within to reveal new truths and new depths. A great many of us are facing challenges at the current time leaving us feeling isolated and beleaguered, alone and disconnected.
It’s inherently human to fill life up with things to do, people to see, places to go and goals to achieve. We can become overly focused on busy-ness as we feel it gives our lives shape, structure and definition.
Last year was undoubtedly the most challenging year of my life, so much so, it has taken me until now to process it and to find the courage to form the words to write about it. I had to face the depths of myself and, as if that wasn’t enough...
It’s easy to look back at the ‘bigger picture’ of the year, to those experiences that have shaped and flavoured everything else, as it’s usually only a small - and often incongruent - selection of experiences that come together to define the essence of our lives.