As we prepare to step from one year to the next, there is a sense of a plethora of chaotic energies, thoughts, ideas and beliefs all crashing into each other causing explosions and implosions on every level of our souls.
This year I’ve fallen apart. Everything I once held dear has been torn down and ripped away. My beliefs have been shattered, my sense of spiritual connection has disintegrated and turned to dust, and my physical self has crumbled with ill-health and disability.
Chaos in the soul is unsettling, but it is a vital part of our personal and spiritual evolution. Without chaos, there is no change, and without change, we cannot grow. Chaos can be frightening, but it can also be a friend. For it is through the chaos, that we find Truth and our sense of Self.
If we step back to look at the bigger picture of our lives, we may be lucky enough to see some common threads weaving their way through the space and time that makes us individuals, but these often get lost in the mêlée and chaos of the ebbing and flowing tides.
There is so much pressure in modern living: unanswered emails banging on the door, a ‘read’ notification on a message implying the sender is being ignored if not immediately responded to and the constant noise and light all around. Creating some breathing space allows each of us to breathe more deeply into life and to step back from being caught up in the hamster wheel of keeping on keeping on so we can begin to see the bigger picture once again.
December is a time to look back with warmth and tenderness, to celebrate the good things and to gently embrace the challenges with love rather than criticising and judging ourselves for not doing better.
As we continue to turn towards the depths of our souls in order to yield to a deeper sense of connection, there is a sense of fracture and chaos around us as the world twists and turns with uncertainty.