Welcome to the Void

I have spoken to and and gotten emails from so many people all wondering about basically the same thing.

People are tired, exhausted even. There is no enthusiasm for anything, even the things that they used to feel so excited about.

Physical, mental and emotional and spiritual bodies are out of whack. The physical symptoms can include sinus, throat, and ear problems, headaches, weird pains that seem to come and go for no reason, sometimes it feels like the pain is swimming around in your body. Digestion is off, uncomfortable, too fast or too slow. And appetite is skewed, things that used to taste good don't taste so good any more. There can be body aches, fevers and flu like symptoms, and of course just being really, really tired. Vision is variable, sometimes being quite blurry.

Mental symptoms include either unable to even think or getting lost in mental loops. Keeping track of time is challenging and so is doing anything that requires an sharp left brain. It is much easier to distract ourselves and to just sit and stare at the sky, the television, a book or the wall. Those little things that used to give you pleasure just don't do it anymore.

Emotions are running rampant. Apathy, hopelessness, despair, sadness and a feeling of being totally empty and stuck. Alternately, you might be feeling really frustrated. It's like long term PMS, you just want people to leave you alone and take care of their own problems. (People can be so annoying.)  You might feel loss of interest in your work, your hobbies, your friends and even the whole planet. Just brushing your teeth (again!) seems like such a chore, and so stupid. Why bother, it's all illusion anyway.

When emotions are running high it is difficult to maintain your connection with spirit. It's like the emotions have filled you up, over your eyes and ears so you can't see or hear clearly and there's no room for new information. Have you noticed that when you are most miserable, afraid or sad that when you call on spirit for guidance you get nothing?

What is going on here? We're getting so close to 2012 and we were promised that things would get better. But right now I don't give a damn about any of that, I just want to sleep.

It's like every cell, every molecule, every atom is going through  major transformation. And it's stressful! Imagine an acorn. It's been in it's seed shape for a long time, waiting to express its potential and become a great oak tree. But now the conditions require that it starts the transformation. This process is stressful. Chemical changes happen inside, creating pressure on the seed shell. This pressure builds and builds while the moist environment softens the shell, making it weaker. Eventually, the shell splits and the tender, vulnerable sprout begins to emerge.

Think about what that would feel like to the seed. Its protective shell is getting weak and breaking apart. The tender inner parts, once so safe and protected, are now being exposed to an unknown environment. This is something that the seed has never experienced before and it doesn't know what will happen in the end.

This is what is happening on a cellular level within our bodies. Not that we are becoming trees! It's a metaphor. This is the stress that we are feeling in our bodies and it is using a lot of energy. Most of you have been living on will power alone, making yourself do the things that you must.

And at the same time a powerful spiritual transformation is going on. The energetic connections between the new reality and the old reality are disconnecting. All the things that defined you in the old reality are falling away. Those things include your roles (daughter, son, mother, father, etc.) your dreams and the ways that you manifest your dreams. You have already let go of so many things. It can feel like chunks of you have been chiseled away. Now, at the end of the process it is necessary to release even those things that you have loved the most. These are things in your life, like your spiritual work,  creative interests and also things that make up your very self.

We all have ways that we define our selves. The things that we like, what we don't care about or dislike. We take it for granted that this is who we are. We have all had dreams about the future, perhaps to open a healing center, or write a book or live in a community and grow your own food. Many of these things are what we really like or love about ourselves. Right now we are revisiting these definitions and dreams. Do we still desire the same things? Is it appropriate to take these into the new reality or are they based too much on the old energy?

Here are some examples:

One woman always wanted to have a healing practice. She had studied many modalities and finally started to work with clients. The work was not fun anymore. It was not satisfying or even interesting.

I spoke to a man who has had a regular yoga practice for many years. It has been very important to him for many reasons. Now he doesn't feel like going to class anymore.

I have always loved plants. My mom was a landscape architect and an organic farmer. I was raised to work in the garden and care for the plants. I have always had a "green thumb" and if I couldn't have my own garden, at least I always had lots of houseplants. This was something that I really liked about myself. Recently I felt that all those plants were nothing more than more responsibility, just more things that I had to take care of. The joy and love was completely gone.

This is definitely not a comfortable process. There's a little voice in your head that says, "If I surrender to this then everything will be lost and I will never feel hopeful or creative again. " There is a fear that we will never get out of the void. What I have discovered is that the opposite is true. What is required is to embrace the void. Let yourself feel the hopelessness, apathy and fear. Spend some time there experiencing the intensity. Do not take any action yet. I had a thought that I would throw all the (stupid, needy) houseplants into the trash and be done with it. Luckily, I decided to wait it out. (Or maybe that just seemed like too much work.)

A few days later I noticed an orchid in a pot by my driveway. It's blooms had just fully opened and I paused for a moment to appreciate the beauty. It made me feel good and grateful. It seems that I did not loose forever my love of plants. Now, instead of this definition being unconscious, based on my childhood and habit, it was a choice.

We can not live in physical reality without any definitions. In order for something to be manifested it must have some definition. What is going on now is that we are being giving the opportunity to look at how we have defined ourselves, see what it feels like to not have those definitions and to choose what we want to take with us into the new reality.

When you combine the re-defining process with the transformation of the physical body you have a potent mix. And yes, the two are related. So be very patient and gentle with yourself. Don't try to fight it. As I read the energy, we have no more than a couple more weeks of intense void time.

Focus on the little things that give you pleasure, whether it's a flower, some awesome cloud formations or a hug from someone you love. Soon things will start to light up again. Trust in the process.

Comments

Prosper503935 30th April 2010 7:47 am

Thank you, this makes allot of sense, as I have been questioning why we live, and discovered that love is the reason many of us cry out for attention.

Thank you so much, your defining a time in which declares us to define ourselves and what we want to bring along with us into the new world.

Judi J 30th April 2010 9:52 am

What a great, insightful, encouraging article. I love the analogy of the acorn and will carry that with me. Thank you so much for this article. :)

Lily 30th April 2010 11:33 am

Dear Sarah,
Thank you so very much for this message on the void. I have experienced so many of these symptoms for at least 20 years. And thank you, Carolyn, for saying you havae been in the void for 20 years. So often I have wondered why I've experienced disinterests and other things. that others sound as if it is all rather recent for them.

I am 74 and about 15 years ago noticeably lost my life-long interest in drawing, painting and crafts, though I have not been able to get rid of my materials and supplies, always thinking-hoping my motivation and interest would return. There have been many other rippings away of dreams and hopes in the last 20 years.

I had to laugh when you mentioned tooth brushing, as a few years ago I told my housemate that when we are on the other side considering reincarnation, just to say to me, "Tooth brushing 48,000 times!!"

Thank you so very much for your much needed, greatly encouraging message, Sarah, that lets me know that I am not alone and it is a process with a bright ending, and everything matters.
Blessings, peace and love,
Lily

Mys. Terious 30th April 2010 11:50 am

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KevinGrey 30th April 2010 4:15 pm

For myself, this process was indicative of the transference from outer authority, to inner authority, coupled with a reconnection to the value of self.

In this process, there was a "disconnect" from the outer authority and standards that used to justify the ego's reason to "do", it's sense of purpose. I discovered so many things that I did, because "others" in one way or another, told me I should.

Or, I was doing them for my own reasons, but these were linked to other's values or standards that I had taken up as my own.

Initially, on feeling this "loss of truth from without", as a guiding and motivating force, feelings of being lost, desperate, without guidance or motivation and the physical symptoms that accompanied it was quite strong.

And what it took, has been a reevaluation of self. To truly take hold of the value of self and what I see. And then, to discover what I desire. Combined, this provides a sense of purpose again. An ability to direct self that alleviates the vacuum that was created when outer authority was disconnected from.

wsbur 30th April 2010 5:54 pm

:2funny
Thanks Sarah. Now I know why I feel like a nut in Spring.
Whooaaa
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goddess 1st May 2010 8:11 am

Thankyou for such great information, it makes so much sence and it helps to understand why i feel so awful and extremely tired constantly.

It's great to meet like minded people who you know can understand where you are at and wont make you feel as if your a nutter. love and light x goddess x

sprague 1st May 2010 2:49 pm

I will say in a few words of simplicity, SIMPLY very very COOL , much love to you & all xox. Grant [nz]

mifasolasi 1st May 2010 5:24 pm

... and so it is.!! :)
exactly.. apathy.. complete stillnes , feeling like living the void and beeing tired and sleepy... I just watch myself remaining still in chaotic energies around and I feel somewhow, like not beeing there, just watching and not envolving.. but something says .. stay here.. be still.. of course challenges come from everywhere.. I feel stable in void with many forcing energies piercing me from everywhere trying to push me down.. and this makes me feel exhausted some times..to be honest, continuously... The main issue is.. what is the next to released?? Sometimes to change some habits it is not the easiest of course, but one to release heart attachments when Universe brinks them with magic ways in front of them.. the discern is hard to be done.. What Universe wants to say sending back something you have already desided to release and you released it ( or you did not?? or you you are wrong ??) Anyway , show must go on and we suppose to be good performers.. and we are....
Thank you Sarah for sharing this message.. Be fine!! :)
Love :smitten:

lisa marie 1st May 2010 9:08 pm

talk about space man... I kinda like space and the "void" floatin and enjoin the ride. mifasolasi, your post is the most recent and the one I can see the most. Enjoy the ride All!

netdragon 2nd May 2010 11:07 am

Augggggh I feel sooo grounded and it is not fun! It's tiring! I'm so used to floating around at the very top of the vibrational range. My spine and other parts of my body that are sensitive to heaviness and density are in pain. My significant other is getting on my nerves - I have no patience.

One good side is that I can manifest much easier right now because I'm getting more traction. More like my feet getting dug deep in than traction. It's like walking in a swamp.

I also feel this duality of this intense grounding and also part of myself being disconnected from everything. I see energy fields at inconvenient times more now than before.

Angelika Lina 2nd May 2010 1:21 pm

Hi Mys.Terious

I can so emphasize with what you're going through. I too feel mostly good - for the last 2 months anyhow, but than wonder am I celebrating too soon? I get interested in something for a short while and than loose interest again.

Pretty much everything seems too much of an effort and what's the point anyway...

So I'm just plodding along as best I can, expecting that eventually things will change and will become exciting and interesting again. Being outside in nature, especially for long walks make me feel better. I'm starting to get insights again when meditating - there was a big void for ages.

Definitely reading articles like this one are uplifting - at least it shows that there are others going through the same stuff and understand - and Lily, I had to laugh - brushing the teeth, washing, doing the hair - it's been a bother for ages now.

Love & Blessings
Angelika

juany 3rd May 2010 11:13 am

Thank you Sarah. And let it, please, be from your lips to God's ears about the two weeks, more or less, time frame to start moving away from the void.
Thank you.
Blessings,

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Sarah Biermann is the founder of ImagiCreation technique. Sarah is a clairvoyant and highly empathic intuitive counselor and healer. She is able to perceive your life lessons, dysfunctional belief systems and the past lives that are limiting your ability to express your divine plan and live your dreams.

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