30th October: A Gift in Disguise…

Out on the Assault Course

As we approach the Uranus/Pluto square exact on Friday and the solar eclipse in Scorpio a couple of days later, intensity is building and many people are feeling under enormous pressure. Whatever our biggest ‘issue’ is, that’s the one being triggered at the moment. Of course it will vary from person to person, and one person’s struggle may seem like a whole load of noise about nothing to another, but many are feeling painted into a corner at the moment and this can make for some stressful times.

Looking at the charts for today I found myself wondering ‘what’s the best advice in the midst of this cosmic storm?’. The answer came back loud and clear: head down into the wind and keep on walking. Ugh, it wasn’t really what I wanted to hear. I’m looking for a solution the same as everyone else! But the heavens speak of the need for endurance now and a willingness to surrender completely any notion of immediate relief in favour of the greater value of moving through something rather than solving it from the outside looking in.

We’re not in the cosmic classroom pondering problems in a text book to which formulae can be applied. No, we’re out on the assault course in the rain and howling wind, covered in the blood, sweat and tears of what it means to be human, amidst the challenges of life in this material realm where wounded egos hold sway. Life out here is far from all sweetness and light and the heavens refuse to collude with any notion it is. Right now we are facing the darkness and challenged to acknowledge it, step into it and accept it as our own creation.

For once we do that – owning our own shadow, the karmic consequences of choices made and the ever-present influence of our egoistic mind-sets – we can recognise just how adept we have been at creating this present moment of challenge and strife and just how unconscious we have been in the process.

Today we need to recognise that unconsciousness, identifying when and how we have acted from a numbed-out place inside which just needed to avoid the pain, whatever the pain was, without considering the longer term consequences of doing so. Generally speaking the ego responds to a hierarchy of pain. Some things are more bearable than others.

If we fear above all else, being alone, we will tolerate the pain of a dysfunctional relationship over and above the risk of facing our biggest fear. If we fear losing our security we will tolerate the stress of an unsatisfying job which pays well but destroys our soul at the same time. We each make these trade-offs to limit our exposure to the ultimate pain of facing our biggest and most terrifying fears. But the price of doing so becomes higher and higher the longer we continue to act in this way.

And now, at this point in the Uranus/Pluto cycle, we are receiving the bill for all that avoidance and all those unconscious choices. It’s not a punishment from the universe, just the natural consequence of operating from a place of fear. In that sense it’s a gift. Yes, the visceral and distressing nature of these times is a gift, because in seeing the consequences so clearly now, in feeling them lodged in our heart and soul like leaden weights, we can begin to make connections we’ve not made before and shine the light of consciousness onto our deepest and most profound fears, rather than side-stepping them to remain in the twilight of a barely half-lived life.

Yes, these are profoundly challenging times, but they come to rouse us from a deep and unhealthy sleep. If we’re in pain, something needs to change and if it’s our pain, then it’s our responsibility to change it, not by making a trade and opting for the easier route, but by looking without guile into the face of who we are and choosing a different way to heal and be whole once more.

May we all awaken and be free.

Sarah Varcas


SuzyQ 30th October 2013 6:33 am

Sarah- i was so happy to see a message from you today ! Wow am I feeling /living what you wrote about. I have some rough spots at work that I was trying to decide on one if better to wait until next week or tackle the conversation this week, so I will think positively and see if calendars allow a meeting to transpire this week. Thank you for your words of guidance. I truly appreciate your non-sugar-coated views, they ring more true to me about the duality of the world we are still living in today than some things I read.

Anni 30th October 2013 6:52 am

Sarah... yes.. I feel this. I see this. I am going through this 'assault course' of the soul right now. On one hand it was reassuring to read this post, however on the other hand, I am so painfully aware of knowing it was all of my own doing and that it is only me that can change anything. Right now this doesn't help as I feel paralysed by the same fear. Right now I haven't a clue what I can do or how I can do it. I am just praying that this will become clear to me over the next few days and that I will have the courage and strength to do what is necessary. Scary times indeed. But thank you for your posts.

Esmé 30th October 2013 7:59 am

Sarah you are killing me!!! ;D
Annie, I can relate....I'm banking on clarity...for I am ready to "do" what is necessary, but don't know what or where....or am I just fooling myself because of fear?? I DON'T KNOW! Wonderfully frustrating times.

Thank you Sarah. :smitten:

keryndawer 30th October 2013 8:37 am

WOW Sarah, this is so EXACTLY Life right now it's unbelievable. Your insight is amazing and your help/guidance invaluable. Answers and solutions to snow-balled problems feel so beyond reach/resolution right now. I know and trust your guidance/suggestion that now is not the time for decisive action but inward reflection... the "way out" will come in time but not before we awaken and become conscious. Thank you for your immense gifts of understanding, clarity and communication.
:) :) :)
Truly and with Love and Light,

skyblue0cean 30th October 2013 8:51 am

Thank you so MUCH! this is exactly what I have been going through for the past 3-4 days. SO INTENSE! like all my pain at once. Mind racing for answers but just need to be with it and not jump to conclusions. Totally feels like I'm cornered. No way out. This made such a difference. Thank you again.

Anni 30th October 2013 9:27 am

Esme.. It is SO reassuring to know that I am not the only one!! Thank you! Let's see what happens!

ToniSarvallo 30th October 2013 9:48 am

I have felt exactly the same inner advice; to keep on going, not too fast nor to slow down. To just examine the incredible fears that arise and that evoke memories of stuff that happened long ago but obviously still have remnants buried within and that must be very deep indeed! I remember that fear is just False Evidence Appearing Real, and this really helps. While I would like to be in a bit of different life with some crucial issues resolved, at the same time the peace and joy that comes during down times from all this processing is remarkable and after a near death experience during my last haul this past week, I suddenly have a completely new outlook on things and for the first time EVER, feel grounded and present and that I belong in my own life. This is well worth all the trouble and I look forward to more of the same!

ToniSarvallo 30th October 2013 9:53 am

Esme, Anni...ladies, I don't think at this time we are SUPPOSED to know what the fears mean; not all of them anyways. I think we've suppressed them so long we can't recognize them but our body and soul knows, and I've found it is not necessary to try to figure it out. While it's truly daunting as we usually feel if we are not mentally engaged we are doing it 'wrong', in this case I've found that just allowing the fear to pass through me for as long as it wants to, is the only answer possible. The explanation DOES come when you've allowed this to happen, but by then it is a good thing and gives you power. Carry on bravely!

Silkworm 30th October 2013 10:04 am


Deeni 30th October 2013 10:49 am

Thank You, Sarah.

Bang on as usual.

I really enjoyed this very well written message.

"No, we’re out on the assault course in the rain and howling wind, covered in the blood, sweat and tears of what it means to be human, amidst the challenges of life in this material realm where wounded egos hold sway."



: ))

Sandra Smyre 30th October 2013 1:43 pm

WOW!!!! and double WOW!!! As usual, Sarah, you have driven home truth. Love to all souls without answers(me included) and Peace as we journey toward the Light. Much love to you Sarah :smitten:

Esmé 31st October 2013 1:48 am

Anni get your gun - we are not going down without a fight! ;D Sending you love & light. :smitten:
Toni, thank you for reminding us not to get lost in all the emotions and illusionary fears. x

Anni 31st October 2013 5:13 am

:coolsmiley Esme... I LOVE that!!! Thank you!!! And much love and courage to you and all of us here! :smitten:

Skyhawke8 31st October 2013 12:53 pm

"To strive, to seek, to find ...
and not to yield!"

From "The Walking Drum" by Louis L'Amour

"It is not the critic who counts;
not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly... who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly."
Theodore Roosevelt~

"This human shape is a ghost
made of distraction and pain.

Sometimes pure light, sometimes cruel,
Trying wildly to open,
This image so tightly held within itself.

Stay in the company of lovers ..."

It is good ... and such an honor to stand in this global arena soaked by the storm, naked and bruised, covered in blood and sweat and tears, yet still smiling in the company of lover's with all of you, my fellow lightworkers and Angels on Earth at this time.

Love and Blessings to All-
thank you Sarah,
for shining in Truth as you do

kay 3rd November 2013 12:01 pm

Inspired as always, Sarah. Thank you, skyhawke8 and all commenting. It's fine being in the company of lovers and angels: aware ones as well as those who don't yet see that that's who we are.

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