Everyone faces this moment, some more often than others
Meaning is often about reason, purpose and value
This lack of meaning generally creates a crumbling effect as we often live a prescribed life
What does it mean to live a prescribed life? It’s a life designed by subtle inferences, suggestions, protocols and incentives
We then function more robotically than we would care to admit or to acknowledge
It is because of this overlay design that the blank slate aspect of ourselves begin to pop through
That part of us that naturally want a turn, to paint the unknown on the canvas of life
It wants to see what it can authentically be unapologetically
It wants to be free to explore beyond its preset boundaries
So we deeply seek meaning
However we restrict ourselves according to religious, spiritual, cultural, social, economic status and academic boundaries
That shadow self will ultimately force its way out
At times when it does, it shows up in the form of what we define as a state of “insanity”, depression or mental instability
Even then we are in hiding from ourselves
Experiencing the lack of meaning is your cue to dive more deeply into the question of “who am I”
It’s then time to I-merge
Exploring “meaning” presents an opportunity for the integration of both worlds, the one of the robot/automated self and the one of fluid consciousness beyond form
We must be willing to be uncomfortable in surrendering to the feeling of meaninglessness
We must be willing to allow the outdated filters to dissolve
While we are in this state of surrender, know that the platform on which you stand is one of trust and openness for the unknown new version of reality that will rise up
“I die daily” there is truth to that, for surrendering can very much feel like a death, but like the phoenix you will rise!
The message here is to allow your moments of meaninglessness but with an understanding of the potential gift of change being ushered in
It is then no longer about the comfort and safety of that which is known and repeated with certainty
But it can be about new discoveries that the grander part of you is ready to give way to
You are waiting for permission from yourself, so give permission for this expansion that will take you into levels of greater meaning!
It is why you exist; for endless and bottomless exploration
Meaning is not out there, yet as a paradox it is
For out there reflects a response to our questions and to the evidence we seek in affirming our existence (at least the robot self)
The external also reflects the handy work of our expansive consciousness for none of it would exist without its support
You are the ultimate meaning, as a human, as greater essence, as source, as imagination, as form, as formlessness, as the cosmos and as unimaginable forms of life!
So this moment of meaninglessness may very well be the most magical time in your life as you may now paint freely upon the canvas of life by stepping outside of illusory boundaries
Meaning – who are you?
©2022 Sonia Barrett