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This year has had a real heaviness to it which may have left some questioning have we truly 'made it'? The ending of our old cycle meant one of two things as we faced the beginning of a new cycle. Collectively we had a choice: to awaken and transform our world, or to stay in our slumber and experience the demise of all living things. That was the reality of our situation. The way we were going was not, and is not, sustainable. So it was with great anticipation that we looked forward to the beginning of our new cycle. It symbolised a positive turning point and a new beginning. We knew that we did not come here to fail yet again, and so millions of people celebrated as together we shifted into a new era of consciousness, and thus a new era of awakening and global transformation.
Yet after the first dewy days of a new dawn, rather than feeling exhilaration and bliss many of us found ourselves feeling like we’d been hit with a wet cloth. We experienced a sense of heaviness, depression and even a desire to leave the planet for much of January. We may even have wondered “Did we really choose the road of mass awakening and transformation? Am I deluding myself? Maybe we failed...again!!” Speaking for myself, even though everything was fine and dandy in my personal world, it felt very hard to be here on Earth and I haven’t felt that way in a long long long long time. I became hyper-super aware of all the injustice that is still out there, all the lies and dysfunction that are still happening, all the mediocrity we’re still surrounded by that’s celebrated by the mass media while real issues and solution-pioneers are ignored, and part of me just did not want to be here anymore. I’m sure many of you felt the same way.
February will feel much lighter as we adjust to the new program which is: here’s the truth of your reality/world, what are you going to do about it? We will continuously be called this year to find ways to come back to our centre with revelation after revelation sending us into waves of shock at times and even further despair. We need to remember that revelations are a positive thing, even if they are challenging, because they lift what has always been there under the carpet to the surface. Revelations are an important part of the process of positive change. Revelations are part of the process of awakening into greater consciousness and awareness. So it will be a very dramatic year, and it will also be exciting to be a witness to all that is being uncovered.
Many of you will already be feeling this ‘witness’ or ‘observer’ vibe, having energetically already stepped out of the old matrix, and watching as if from the outside in as the old world falls away. This may seem to contradict our commitment to greater conscious action, however the key word there is conscious action. We don’t personally need to be involved in every demolition and re-construction of every building and structure on the planet. We all have our own piece of the puzzle to take care of. Just follow your own inner compass and your own Hansel and Gretel Cookie crumbs. You may be a conscious observer for some issues, and a passionate activist for others. You may be a devoted parent who is committed to researching about the healthiest food options for your kids, or you may be a kind, loving person who is always there to extend a helping hand to others. A lot of people get confused about this fine line between taking action vs allowing thing to unfold. To me it is not an either/or situation, it is both. It is our old paradigm’s version of action that has confused us. The old version was a very masculine, aggressive, mind type of action, often coming from fear, that wasn’t necessarily in harmony with the actual, desired outcome. The new version of action is conscious, heart-based, divinely-inspired action which may at times mean that your action is to sit and be in your own sacred space. It may mean getting political. It means whatever it means for you in each moment.
At the same time that January brought a heaviness born of hyper-awareness, I was aware that this hyper-awareness was a good thing and much needed for everyone to finally snap awake in a really conscious, practical way and be active transformation agents in greater and bigger ways; on a humanitarian level, political level, environmental level etc. We are continuing to receive so many signs that something major has shifted. Mass protests are everywhere demanding a myriad of social changes, and governments are finally committing to meet some of those demands - British MP’s have voted in favour of same-sex marriage. There has been, and will be more, unprecedented outrage and a ‘no more’ vibe to attitudes and ways that have long passed their use by date. Negative comments about women breastfeeding in public triggered a ‘nurse-in’ outside a television studio in Australia. While those particular negative comments may not compare to other recent triggers for outrage (the rape of women and the sexual abuse of children for example) the reaction is linked to the same core: the rise of the divine feminine and the refusal to continue to allow the disrespect that women, children, minority groups, and other vulnerable people have continually been shown. Conservative U.S television host and political commentator Bill O’Reilly said recently, “The White Establishment is now the minority.” He said that with a grim face like it’s a bad thing, but for those who have been suppressed as a result of this establishment it was cause for celebration.
There have been major revelations of long-hidden secrets and we will see more as the months continue. Lance Armstrong finally came clean (ish) to Oprah and there is news breaking just now regarding a major drug cover up in Australian sports. It’s been revealed in the UK that popular brands of food purporting to use beef, are actually using horsemeat instead. There was a mainstream article that somehow skipped the censor’s brush and dared to point out the truth: that we have all become participants in a false reality that has been constructed for us. We will become aware of this more than ever this year.
A recent media controversy in Australia highlighted the insensitivity of prank phone calls after a tragic consequence. In another case, a much loved media identity’s on-air confession about smoking, tearfully admitting to not being able to kick the habit while currently pregnant, has raised awareness of the power and dangers of addiction more than any smoking campaign ever has. All of these things are shifting our collective consciousness just as much as, if not more than, any self-help seminar.
So what’s going on? Have we made ‘the shift’ or not, and if we have why does it feel so heavy? Well indeed we have but as we’ve been saying for years: shifting into a new vibration means anything not in alignment with that vibration has to come up and out for release, collapse or transformation. It is the era of transparency and authenticity. It is the era of truth and integrity. Whenever we make a major personal shift, we will always come face to face with all the ways in which we have been sabotaging ourselves. We will have lightbulb moments about thoughts, beliefs and actions that have been running contrary to what we say we want. We’ve experienced this in our personal lives, we are now seeing it in greater numbers of people, and in wider global arena’s. As with personal awakening and inner transformation, mass awakening and global transformation requires a confrontation with truth, and truth is what we are collectively finding ourselves neck deep in right now.
The heaviness is a result of the megatonnes of truth, or rather deceptions that were disguised as truth, that are pouring out of every personal, social, political, government, military, corporate, media, pharmaceutical, religious, historical etc nook, cranny and crevice right now, spilling out for all to see and feel – and a lot of it is not pleasant. It can be downright ugly, disturbing, uncomfortable and challenging to our personal reality comfort zones. Yet if we truly want what we say we want – a transformed world – then this heightened exposure to the current reality that surrounds us is an essential part of that process. Shifting to a higher level of consciousness involves being awake and aware to everything that is playing a part in creating our reality, to everything that is being portrayed to us as reality. We cannot change what we are unaware of. We cannot step into our power if we are blind to the ways in which power has been taken from us. Pulling back the curtain of OZ, or the veil of illusion, is not for the faint-hearted.
Discussing and exposing the truth is often seen as negative for the very reasons mentioned above. It is often uncomfortable and challenging to hear it. In mainstream society the truth often flies against the face of what we have been taught, or are being told, is truth. In the alternative community, it often flies against the face of the old ‘new age’ motto to think positive and focus on what you want, not what you don’t want. Yet there is nothing positive in remaining silent, in keeping quiet, in being blind to what is going on in the world. Our old ‘everything happens for a reason so leave it alone’ motto is not going to cut it in this new cycle. Yes, everything does happen for a reason – we are collectively starting to realise that one of the higher opportunities of a tragic event or injustice is to act as a catalyst for action and transformation. This is what we will see more and more of this year. People being galvanised into action by small and large events, that trigger unprecedented outpourings of emotion and response, compelling individuals, communities, companies and governments alike to finally do something about a variety of issues.
“I feel we are not supposed to sit back and use spiritual platitudes as justification for inaction, or to avoid the emotional responses that would be triggered by actually facing the realities of the world in which we live. Those emotional responses hold the key that will guide us to whatever action is most appropriate. It is through our emotional experiences that we find our humanity and ultimately express our spiritual “enlightenment.” The greatest measure of our enlightenment now lies in this question: In the face of watching brothers and sisters in extreme crisis, what are you going to do?”- A New Kind of Enlightenment by Dana Mrkich, Insight Magazine, Jan 2007
Right now, the truth is making some people very upset - namely, those who have relied on certain truths remaining hidden in order to stay in power. There’s now even a supposed negative name for those of us who dare to question official stories and practices – ‘truthers’. It’s starting to feel like the days of the witch hunts all over again where people who voice the truth or dare to question are ridiculed or worse! Protests are seen as low-level terrorism, while laws are being put into place in some U.S states making anyone who reports factory farm abuses a terrorist! Facebook is suspending accounts that question the official narrative of Sandy Hook following a warning from Connecticut Police that misinformation could result in prosecution. Questioning a narrative that has so many inconsistencies as to be completely mind-boggling is a perfectly normal human reaction. It is our right as citizens to question things that are directly, or indirectly, affecting our community, country or world. Whether it is mass media incompetence reporting staggering inaccuracies or outright deceit that explains these inconsistencies, surely we aren’t okay with either? So why are people who are asking questions being vilified by members of their family and community? It is a good sheep-herder that can train his sheep to herd themselves into not stepping outside the established boundaries!
Before we all run away from the planet in despair, the good news is that the degree of truth-repression that’s occurring right now is a direct response to the degree of truth-seeking, truth-demanding and truth-revealing that is occurring right now. Informed, courageous people are still daring to question. They are daring to reveal truth and they are having a positive impact - activists have prevented the ‘factory farm whistleblower = terrorist’ laws from passing in seven states.
No one is here to tell you what is truth and what is not, what is good for your children and family, and what is not. There is no one truth fits all size, however there is that which is true for you. And to find out what is true for you is one of your most important jobs right now. Do whatever resonates best – read, research, meditate, journal, ask questions, look under carpets, muscle test. Find answers that sit right with you and let your own inner authority guide you.
Another reason for this new cycle heaviness was explained so well by the ‘grandmother’ of Conscious Evolution Barbara Marx Hubbard in a recent interview with The Shift Network’s Stephen Dinan. She described it as a kind of post-partum depression that even she has felt. Having spent so long exerting so much time, energy and focus toward the ‘birth’ date of a new world, it is as if we woke up the next morning to the reality that we had a newborn in our arms (a world needing to be completely overhauled from ground up) and frankly the reality of the situation hit us all like an overwhelming blanket that we wanted to hide under for a while.
A relevant comment came through on my Facebook page that many of you will resonate with: “Initially my January started off rather light but as it's gone on it's just gotten heavier and heavier and I feel like I've stepped back 10 steps for no reason ... so I'm just sitting with it and not 'doing' anything with it as I'm hoping it will pass very soon.”
My reply was: “I would love it to pass soon too but unlike heaviness from energetic or emotional debris that can be cleared in an easier way, what we are feeling is the physical debris, the physical reality of all the systems that have been operating in a way that is not in harmony with our hearts, souls, our health, our worth. So in this case the clearing that needs to take place revolves around action be it exposing truth and old attitudes, or participating in the creation of/supporting new systems and structures. So the heaviness is not so much an energy we need to move through, rather it is many aspects of physical reality that we have to dismantle and replace with a new physical reality. We had to get to a certain level of consciousness in order to be able to do this, but now we're here it's time to transfer our consciousness into action, in whatever small or large ways. I believe it will be in our daily actions now that we will find relief from the heaviness.
So a good question to ask right now in the heaviness might be: what can I do right now to find relief from the heaviness? What can I do to make me feel I am participating in the clearing/renovation process? It might be as easy as reminding yourself: Well I am recycling a lot more than I used to. I am choosing fresh, healthy, local food when I can. I am aware of the ingredients in my packaged food and moisturisers. I support local farmers and craftspeople. It might be as challenging as committing to something that you keep procrastinating about that your soul is calling you to do more of, or less of. Even not 'doing' anything can be a conscious action eg consciously choosing to stay in a peaceful heart-based space. When you consciously acknowledge that this is your contribution for this moment, it is in those moments that you will find relief. Another great question to ask is: what is this particular heaviness drawing my attention toward? What have I just been made aware of? Often you'll find that the same sort of topics/events make you feel heavy, so these are clues as to perhaps what your soul would like to get more involved with at some point down the track or find more information about.”
Around the same time that I was writing about this heaviness, a friend sent through a beautiful short video of a young boy with down's syndrome being mothered/patted gently by a golden labrador. It instantly lightened the heart, so add to the list of actions you can take: watch something, read something or listen to something that reminds you of all the beauty and love that exists on our planet. It was a great reminder to balance out all the heavy truth-revealing with joyous truth-revealing as there is plenty of that out there right now as well.
We are creating a new world, and there is plenty of evidence right now to show that. This evidence may not be wrapped in the pretty package we expected, but remember that the real gift is not the package. It is what is inside once the paper comes off.