In late August, as I was writing the article below, an earthquake shook the Eastern coast of North America. A very unusual event for this region which amplified the sense of unreality I’d been feeling for weeks. A day after the earthquake my mother in Florida had a stroke and was hospitalized. (She’s back home now and recovering very well.) And then, three days later, Hurricane Irene came through the region where I live. The great winds that were expected weren’t as intense as the rain which caused severe flooding. My road was washed away and many towns have been ravaged – some literally wiped out. The powerful force of water has rearranged the landscape – inner and outer. As I feel myself to be within the flowing waters of change, I am reminded to amplify the practice of gratitude and appreciation. (For information about how to help flood experiencers, go here: https://www.facebook.com/#!/SaveTheCatskills.)
I’ve noticed in myself – and heard reports from other people – that there’s a feeling of ennui that many are experiencing. Feeling unmotivated, as if we’re swirling around in an eddy of energy, not going anywhere, just spinning in the same spot. To move out of this, I am receiving messages to do what is fun, what makes me feel good.
In my meditation this morning I was floating around, attempting to bring Light into my being and nothing was happening. Then I just focused on my breath and suddenly found the light within me. Ah yes, I remembered messages that have come through during my Monday channeling telecalls that the Light is within us. That is were we need to go to find ourselves. So as I focused my attention on this Light, it began to grow within me and to spread through my physical energy body and radiate outward. Aah, there I am, I thought to myself, as I found my center. Connecting with our center, the stillpoint within, may need some extra vigilance to maintain at this time, as we ride the wild energies of Nature. Connecting with each other in group gatherings will also help us to stabilize as we are carried along in the chaotic energies of change.
There is such an acceleration happening now all over the world with continued humanitarian uprisings and much upheaval due to nature. In this year, many people have experienced transformation in their lives due to wild winds, wild water and wild fires, in addition to massive shifting of the earth through earthquakes and volcanoes. I saw a friend a few days after the hurricane who said “Stay in the wonderment,” as we parted company. Her words have become a mantra to me. The wonderment of wild, powerful nature, which includes the consciousness of humanity, for all are connected. We see this more and more as energetic and physical structures of separation collapse around us.
Nature is our Mirror
The nature of the earth is being reflected in the nature of humanity. What needs to change will change. I have witnessed big shifts and changes in relationships as some people blow significant others out of their lives. Not always gentle endings but explosive blasts of emotion as if they are embodying the energy of hurricanes, earthquakes, wildfires. So as we deal with our personal tsunamis, we need to do our best to continue to stay on the beam of love that shines through the multi-dimensions that we exist within. For the last few months, we have been bumping up and down in our Life Boats on a fast moving current of energy that has been compressing us through a channel, which is like a birth canal. And now it feels like we’re in a holding pattern, waiting for the next contraction to push us forward.
This explains the feeling of being stuck in an eddy, just swirling around in a circle. The feeling of ennui can be a resting place, a time to practice being in the moment and maintaining inner stillness. It’s also a time to nurture ourselves and listen to our hearts, doing only that which we really want to do. The energies are building, gathering strength, for what, we do not know, but many people have been saying they feel like they’re waiting for the other shoe to drop. The practice of being in the vibration of love and acceptance, loving ourselves and being in gratitude and appreciation, will help us to weather whatever the next wave of energy brings forth.
We also need to practice surrender at this time. There are some things we can do nothing about and surrendering to the experience keeps us in the flow, trusting in the prevailing winds of love.
From the Daily Drawings, July 19, 2011
What follows are messages I’ve been receiving in the past month.
A pause… the in breath…
Gathering energies swirl on the horizon like a wavering mirage
Lately, my guides have been communicating to me through inner visions. These visions carry frequencies of information that expand into thought and feelings in an instant of knowing. One such vision showed me the Milky Way Galaxy with Light radiating out of the center. The vision then expanded to show me a vaster viewpoint with Light shining through the center of every Galaxy in the Universe. Science tells us that at the center of every Galaxy is a black hole. My guides tell me that the center of every galaxy contains a portalway to other Universes. Light from beyond our Universe is shining forth and the radiance is spreading and expanding all it touches. It is as if the membrane of our Universe has holes in it that are being opened by an intelligent consciousness, which is the Radiance of the Light of Truth of the Christ Consciousness.
This has been illuminating our lives, for many years, inviting us to expand our vision of the world, to clear away what isn’t our personal truth and to make the necessary changes in our lives in order to embody our Soul Essence, which is our truth. So many people are restructuring their lives at this time. Those who choose to consciously re-structure their lives are affecting those who want to maintain the status quo, for as one makes changes, the ripple effect goes out and touches all. And the nature of Earth is restructuring our lives, as well.
This light shining into our Universe is being absorbed by the stars, which are pulsating with the higher frequencies that travel upon the light waves. There is a great rhythmic cadence taking place throughout our Universe, just as we live within circadian rhythms of changing seasons on Planet Earth and just as the birds know when to fly North or South, and animals know when to mate or hibernate, there is a galactic and universal rhythm and we humans are part of that rhythm.
This is the time of the Great Awakening and all of us are being called to live our truth. After thousands of years of mind control and lies that have been fed to us and our ancestors, the truth is rising from within us. Codes of awakening are lighting us up from deep within our genetic matrix. How we experience this awakening is up to us. “Live vibrantly” is something a friend who is moving through many challenges said to me recently. We participate in expanding the rhythm of Truth by living it ourselves.
Our Souls’ life “expressions” are culminating in this timeline
Due to a misunderstanding of time, we refer to the lives our Souls have expressed through as “past” lives. Actually, our Souls are radiating awareness out into several different timelines at once. These other lifetimes are culminating within us in the current timeline we are in now. When we flow into the channel of the birth canal, all of our Soul’s lives are being compressed into our awareness in this current timeline. This is part of the Great Shift we are participating in. That is why, during “past life” regression sessions, we have opportunities to come to a healing and integration of trauma from the life or lives we are bringing into our awareness. By doing clearing practices we can release negative or dense energy held at the Soul level, that influences destructive patterns in our lives. This allows us to embody our soul essence completely by integrating all the other lifetimes our Souls have experienced.
Heroic Human Beings
The destructive patterns that have accumulated in our Soul’s energetic field are not our natural way of being; they are energetic codes that were implanted into our energy fields through illusions held in the collective consciousness which led to false beliefs of fear and limitation. We are powerful creator beings who consciously decided as a group to go through the illusional experience of losing our connection to Divinity, and then make the journey back home to the truth of our being. As we continue to disable these codes through conscious intention, awareness, and our natural drive towards love, we rise in consciousness into our multidimensionality, embodying our Soul Essence more completely.
As humanity awakens and each person embodies their truth, we will become more and more empowered into living as sovereign beings, free and heroic, expressing the creative essence of our genius on the Earth.
Helios… our beautiful star…
The high frequency of energy coming from the galactic center of the Milky Way is beaming deep into Helios, causing activations that lead to solar flares and other solar emissions. This energy is then pulsed out into our solar system affecting every planet. Down here on Earth, the radiance is going into the core of the earth and heating up the energy there. When I place my attention into the Earth I feel and see a lot of heat and churning energy. The essence of this energy is rising to the surface, causing the earth to move and causing extreme weather anomalies. We are connected through consciousness and energy to All That Is. This energy is moving through our lives, so in effect, the energy or Light coming through the Galactic Center lights up the sun which lights up the Earth which lights up us. And so we are seeing many changes and realignments in our lives as this Radiance calls us to our Truth.
The seven major chakras – actually I’d like to count 9 major chakras including our Earth Star chakra and our Cosmic Star chakra. I see these two chakras as stars of light, one beneath our feet in the Earth and the other above our heads in the ethers. These energy vortices are where our life force energy, which is our Spiritual Essence, connects with the physical. So as we continue to clear our energy fields of untruth (represented by false beliefs), we are making room for our Soul Essence to dwell more completely in our physical body. Our Soul Essence connects energetically into the vortices of our chakra system. Not just in the major chakras, but in all the smaller energetic vortices that exist in the etheric energy around our physical bodies.
And so, we are lighting up from within. The Divine Life force energy has always been within us, it was dimmed over the centuries through the lies that have become what we think of as our history. Be prepared to have your mind blown as more and more information comes to the surface illuminating the lies and manipulation that we have come to believe as truth – such as the true origin of humanity… the extraterrestrial influences that have existed on this planet and contribute to our DNA… the influences of religions that have kept us from knowing ourselves as expressions of Divine Source.
All structures built upon lies are collapsing. As we witness a rearrangement in our lives and the lives of those around us, so that we can live authentically, we are also witnessing the Truth OUT phenomena happening in governments, political arena, economics, religion, science and the medical establishment. We are in a time of chaos where all these aspects are churning.
The Beingness of Love
The frequency of love is becoming our ultimate truth. I’m talking about freedom, joy, bliss, ecstasy, without conditions, constraints or strings attached. The Beingness of Love. I see this energy, this Light that is radiating from the center of all Galaxies as the frequency of love.
All that is of a lower vibration will not be able to survive in this high frequency.
As the untruth falls away, feelings of panic can shake us up from within. If you can see this experience as the high vibrational light coming into your being and activating your chakra system, you will be able to surrender to the experience… breathe into the panic, bring your focus to your heart and see yourself on a wild ride through the rapids on the river of Consciousness – as you journey through the white waters in your Life Boat.
Sink holes and mine fields
Our journey carries us through mine fields of sink holes that teach us to maintain and grow the love within us, which is our essence of Divine Source. These sink holes can be seen as open wounds in our mental and emotional energy fields. They resonate with the energy of our “injuries” in life and also with ancestral wounding. If there’s something in our vibration that still needs healing, we will be drawn to the energies of the sinkhole.
It’s a beautiful experience when you feel yourself being drawn towards a sink hole of old dense feelings, and you stay conscious in your truth, finding your stillpoint and releasing into the vibration of love and well-being. When you do this, you feel yourself dissolving the electromagnetic connection to the energy of the sinkhole and you are lifted up and away from its influence. You can see it rapidly receding as you flow in the current of the Great River of Consciousness. And trust that the love that you resonated with is clearing and healing the sink hole. And when that happens, it’s like the100th monkey effect, clearing and healing all the sink holes that held the energy of the particular wounding you loved yourself out of.
No matter where we’re at on our journey, when we love ourselves and surrender to the moment, we realize who we truly are. It’s the self criticism, the lack of acceptance, the endless mind-talk of what’s wrong with us that punches holes in our lifeboats. As we release what is not our truth, we strengthen our lifeboats – trusting and accepting ourselves.
From the Daily Drawings August 10, 2011
Radiance: the Big Picture
The Light of awakening that is pulsing out of the Galactic Center of the Milky Way, is helping us to integrate and embody the essence of the Christ Consciousness. What I am being shown is that at some point we are to receive a blast of Light that we will expand us into complete one-ness. We need to be ready for that… I think that’s what the ascension looks and feels like. A complete surrender into the Light in which we will experience ourselves to be at one with All of Life in multi-dimensions and multiple Universes. It might be just a flash and an experience of expansion, and then we’ll be back in the physical but in a more expansive dimension where love and bliss are within and without us and we know ourselves to be connected to one another and All That Is, dissolving all feelings of separation. It takes an open, light heart to be able to maintain that state. The challenge is that the light reveals what we fear within us. Witnessing and accepting the fear whenever it shows up is a way of continually moving into surrender, forgiveness, acceptance and love, which keeps us in the light. The Light is so all encompassing; it lifts us up in an embrace of ecstasy.
Reach out to one another, making heart to heart connections. Gather together and amplify the energy and remember to stay in the Wonderment!
Nancy Leilah Ward
The Vastness of Being
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